I havent eaten anything today considering its the first day of my fast and I can already notice the weight I DONT have because I havent eaten anything yet.

Today is July 1st  and my weight is....too unbearable. 
I can't wait till I feel comfortable to say it



Cant talk much. Got to keep busy. Going swimming. Doing laps. Losing weight while Gaining control. 


Strong is in, Think Thin. =]

I am going to be completely honest. I think that you can be "tooo thin" but people dont know what too thin is. I want to be thin, I am hideous. I am tired of everyone telling me I'm beautiful when I can see it in there eyes. People tell me that I'm fat. even my mom says I need to lose weight. I am tired of seeing my fat self in the mirror but what the fuck, I can never seem to make it all disappear. I need a friend. Please help me. I can't do this alone.

I'm feeling super fat. I don't feel pretty at all. My life is completely sucking right now and I feel like I am about to binge because I eat when I'm upset...and I know I did so good today...keeping my urges down..I even wrote a poem. And I'm so disappointed because I feel really lonely and no one is here to help me out and keep me occupied against the pushing emptiness. I don't know if I can do this. Its like...all I want to do is lose weight...but then I gain it from constant stress and eating...and I can't get into it because I don't have any support and like I was finally getting better at it but then my life just started to tumble down and it always helped to stuff my face with comfort food. I don't want to be fat anymore. I want to be pretty. I want to look like Keira Knightley. She is beautiful. I'm never going to look like her. I am just a disappointment. A stupid disappointment and no one is here to help me get through this. I have No support system...what-so-ever.

Signed,
The lonley losergirl.

I need someone to help me here...This is not going to be easy for me. and I need it right now and I can't stop the urge. make it go away...someone.....